REFLECTION Part 2

3am and still no sleep.

I tried all I could to erase the evening's events from my mind but my ex's visit still occupied my every thought. Two hours should have passed by now, I thought to myself as I took my 568th glance at my bedside clock. It's just 3:13am? Damn.

What did she really want? I knew she didn't come all the way from North Carolina just to have harmless sex with me. And that smile on her face, I had seen it a million times. Her smile of accomplishment. I knew her all too well. 

Before we broke up, we had even spoken about marriage but I explained to her that I was not financially ready at the time. But she was not satisfied, she always brought up the conversation. She started threatening to see other people who were more "serious" about her. And when I found out that she had made good of her threats and she was actually talking to other guys, I broke up with her. But now, I could not help but remember the night we broke up. She yelled and cursed at me. Then she looked at me dead in the eyes and promised that she would be my wife no matter what it would take.

Ring ring, my phone snapped me out of my thoughts. Oh my God, it was Valerie. This is the woman I was soon to be married to. We had first met at a Christmas party thrown by a mutual friend. She was smart, she had a good heart, great character, and oh my God, a beauty that Venus would have killed for. How could I have cheated on her? What was I thinking? Things were looking good for me. New house, new car, and then I decided this was the woman I wanted to spend forever with, but I messed up?

All Ashley needed was 10 minutes of my time and my stupid ass f**ked the shit out of her. I mean I couldn't even remember ever f**king Val that way. Should I tell her and throw myself at her mercy and hope she would forgive me?

No! Hell no! But what if I kept this from her and then Ashley pulled something crazy like show up at my wedding with a rounded tummy, claiming that she was carrying my baby? Are those tears in my eyes? I'm too manly for that. Tears solve nothing.

"Hello Mannie. Are you alright baby?" Val asked "You sound like you're ill."

"Oh no it's nothing baby. You just woke me up from sleep, that's all."

Nah, that's not it at all. Mannie you f**ked up big time. Your dumb ass f**ked up.......................My conscience was killing me.

I wiped the salty tears from my eyes. I'm so dead.

THE SAGA BEGINS Part 1

My ex called me out of the blues and said she was headed to my place. Mehn, I'm meant to be sleeping yo. Hell naw! There is no way I'm getting up from my cozy bed for this chick. Well, so I got up to do a quick map quest for her to get to my house from where ever she was at. She had made a couple of wrong turns somewhere in DC. (What?? I was just being nice!!)

So she gets to my place and we're just talking. I'm keeping a straight face and my tone is stern. She knows I've got no time for bull. She started complaining about my attitude so I asked her,
"What are you doing here?"
She said she just needed to use my computer real quick. Wow that's convenient, so she drove past a million libraries and fedex kinkos to use my computer. I didn't really care.
"Well I'm using my laptop so go to the basement, the PC is there." After a couple of minutes, I decided to go down to the basement to see how she was doing but we met on the stairs. She said she was done and she was about to leave.

"Aiight bye."

" Just like that? You'll let me just leave like that?"

"Well what else do want me to do? Goodnight babes!"

She frowned and walked past me but then she came back, "You've found someone else haven't you? " 

I didn't reply.

"Is she treating you good?"
" Well better than you did Ash," I replied rudely "Please leave my house."
" What's her name? " Ashly kept prying. "Her name is Valerie, not that it's any of your business though, so please leave!"

Then she leaned in and tried to kiss me. I know this bitch didn't just try to kiss me, after all she did.

"Bitch you fucked with my heart, please I've found love with Valerie ( in a painful whisper) Hell noooooo !!! ..........................

So we got up from my basement floor like 45mins later all sweaty and I didn't even use a condom, didn't even pull out. Oh shit !! What have I done? My dear Val, please forgive me, was all I could think to myself.
Hope Ashley is not setting me up. Hope she is not trying to have a baby  by me or something crazy. Oh no !!